Dear Tribe

Dear Tribe,

Wow.  Just wow.

My beloved Maya Angelou says that when you're in the midst of struggle you should say thank you. She also says that us human beings need to remember that God put a rainbow in the clouds so we should all strive to be a "rainbow in someone else's cloud".

Thank you for being my rainbows.

Last night after I posted for my juniors, my phone started to blow up - emails, texts, comment notifications on my phone, Facebook messages.  They all appeared as I sat with my sadness and felt hurt.

I didn't try to hide from my feelings.  I felt them completely.  And it sucked.

But in the midst of grabbing another tissue, I whispered "thank you" to no one in particular. In the midst of splashing water on my face, I whispered "thank you" to my haters.  In the midst of staring at the clock change from 1:00 am to 1:30 am, I whispered "thank you" to the people who lifted me up.

And then this morning, I was surrounded by my seniors who brought me coffee, homemade chocolate I can actually eat, and hugs that lasted just long enough to remind me that I am not deserving of darkness. No one is.

I love that you still read and troll my blog.

I love that you get what I try to do in Room 853.

I love that you literally circled up around me and protected me from the ones you thought hurt me.

I love that you care.

In gratitude,
Beltran

P.S. - I'll let you know if I start running another blog...Invitation only.